lilnelson55

I just got a call from Peter today...I have no clue how he got this number (I've changed it a few times since high school) or what he wants. He didn't leave a message or anything, so I guess I'll just pretend it never happened. Or that's just what I'll tell Sean because I know he'll be mad if I call Peter back. Which is silly, Sean and I aren't together...well...yet. Of course I want it to happen, but I guess I'm just waiting for him to make the first move. Subtle hints and sexual innuendos aren't exactly going to cut it at this point. I kind of wonder though...if it never worked out in the past, why would it work out now? Maybe since we're older and more mature....I don't know...Still, I'm kind of curious as to why he would call me after all these years. When I returned his call he just said that he wanted to say hi. WTF? He just wanted to say hi after three years of no contact? The last time I saw him he was crawling out of my bed. Then next thing I know he's dating some red head slut from BC. I guess it doesn't matter, I just pretty much declared my love to Sean Cameron today haha. After he came over and  we had sex multiple times...Man...haha now I remember why I miss him so much... So I'm kinda hoping to fix things with Sean...not worry about anything the spawn of satan (Peter) has to say. But that's not gonna stop me from meeting up with Peter next week. I guess I'm just curious...but hopefully curiousity won't kill the cat!...or the emma ha. 

Wow...I had the most fun I've had in a long time tonight haha. All I can say is that sometimes, you gotta let some of your immaturity out. And sometimes you gotta give bitches what they deserve. We really should have keyed her car and put sugar in the gas tank...However, Manny and I do have hearts. Unlike that whore Astrid. I actually got to spend some time with Manny today and it made me realize how much I missed her. Sure, she's always got loads of drama, but that's the Manny and I know and love! It's funny how we always go through these periods of not talking, but when push comes to shove, we have each other's back.

Snake and my Mom are going away for the weekend and I have to take off 2 days from the salon to babysit Jack. I have no clue what to do with him lol. I'm not exactly the best at entertaining little boys. Hopefully Sean can help me out with that. And hopefully he can help me out with some other things once Jack falls asleep....

I think I kinda went through a funk and I kept blaming everyone else for ignoring me, when in reality, I was distancing myself from everyone. Well that's over. Emma Nelson is back :)

 I actually took some time to read some of my old classmates journal entries and WOW. I guess I'm officially out of the loop!! So much is going on with you people! It's starting to make me happy that everyone ignores me LOL. My boring little life doesn't seem so bad anymore.... Although it would be a lot better if Sean were in it...

This morning when I trudged into the living room, I was so excited to finally have a day to myself!  But as usual, my plans were changed. Now, I don't usually watch The View but the second I turned on the tv, I heard Manny's name come out of Whoopi Goldberg's mouth. So...apparently a sex tape has just been leaked? Since when is that a "Hot Topic"? What is wrong with our society?? I'm sure no one thought that Manny was a virgin, so why is it SUCH A SHOCK that she had sex with someone FIVE YEARS ago? People have sex every single day! It was on the 11 o clock news too! WHY? There are so many more important things in the world that they could report! I'm so over having celebrities lives shoved down my throat! However, I'm there for Manny 100%, just like always. Even though she's pretty much ignored me the entire time she's been in Toronto and hasn't called me back once. This reunion is going to fucking suck. Turns out, five years later, no one gives a shit about Emma Nelson. That's why I didn't go to the party. Maybe it's my own fault for being so distant from everyone...Actually, I don't give a fuck. I don't need Degrassi. Maybe I won't even go.  I'm here for all of you guys BTW. Even though we haven't talked in a few years, I still appreciate the memories that we had and I still care about each and every one of you. Can't wait for the reunion! Anyways, after hearing the news about Manny, I didn't feel much like staying in my robe and bunny slippers in front of the tv all day. I got dressed and got in my car. I wasn't exactly sure where I was gonna go but I needed out. I just drove around aimlessly for a couple of hours. I ended up in front of Sean's house. I don't know why. He was home, his bike was out front...but I just couldn't make myself get out and ring the doorbell. I hate to admit it, but I've become so boring. There has to be more to life than styling old women's hair and piling on makeup for the occasional photoshoot. There's something missing from my life...Who wants to help me find it?

I wasn't feeling too great this morning. I woke up around 6:30 am and spent the next 15 minutes with my head in the toilet.  As much as I wish it was that I drank entirely too much at Spinner's party, it's not. Hopefully it doesn't have to do with the random hookup I had a little over a month ago... I didn't even go to the party because I had to babysit Jack. At least that's the excuse I gave Manny. It's so cute how excited Jack is that Manny is back in town! haha I think he has a bit of a crush on her. Aww his first love!! :) lol. Well, anyways, I'm feeling better now and I think I'm actually beginning to get a teeny bit excited about the reunion. There are plenty of people that I can't wait to see but then again, there are a few which I would rather eat a dozen hamburgers than have a conversation with. Whatever...I'm feeling kind of nauseous again so I'll check in with you guys later...

Ps. Manny, you were right, this whole online journal thing IS therapeutic!

and just for memories sake....



hahahaha.

I don't even really know why I made one of these online journal things. Manny swears that it helps to vent to the abyss that is the online world. I guess I've been kind of paranoid about the internet ever since I almost got myself raped and killed my little "incident" way back in middle school. I was such a dumb kid back then. I was helping my Mom clean out the garage last week, and I came across a box of old pictures. It's embarassing how awkward I looked as a kid. LoL. It's kind of hard to believe that that gawky, skinny kid grew up to be a model. Ack....I still don't like the sound of that. It's not really my thing, but Manny insisted that it would be a great way for me to get some extra money when things at the salon weren't doing so well...and it has been. A few more photoshoots and I should FINALLY be able to move out of my parent's basement. I can't believe that 5 years ago I had so many hopes and aspirations. I thought that I would join greenpeace, maybe go save the dolphins with Hayden Panatierre haha...It's funny how none of that seems important anymore. I'm still stuck on Degrassi street, working in my Mom's salon. I can't help but feel a bit lonely with Manny in L.A. I've kind of been keeping to myself lately. Well, I see Spinner every once in awhile when I go visit Dad at work. It's kind of surreal hearing the kids call him "Coach.Mason". Haha weird. Theres a reunion coming up soon. I'm excited to see how everyone is doing. Not so excited about letting everyone know I'm still single and live with my parents. I really wish Jt could be there. It's not going to feel right without him. It's been a little over five years and I still can't believe it. It just goes to show that no matter how much you crusade against violence, or pollution or whatever, the world will always be the screwed up world it is. Might as well just accept it.